i’m welcoming summer with arms wide open.

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For the past couple weeks, I had been working on a “summer bucket list,” if you will, and then two other bloggers popped up with similar lists of their own. So I’m not sure if they read my mind (or I read theirs), or I was unknowingly jumping on a bandwagon. Either way, I made a list, and I’m going to post it anyway. Besides, those ladies’ lists provided some inspiration.

My goal for this summer is simple: get outside of myself. Learn how to truly live every day in service to both God and others. I don’t want to be remembered as a self-serving person, but rather one whose heart it was to bless other people and live for the Lord. I want to send notes just because, listen instead of talk, take care of that project for someone… I am praying for God to show me how I can die to myself a little bit more every day. I am thrilled to see what this year will bring.

And along the way, here are some things I would love to happen….

  • read every night
  • rise early and start my day with the Word
  • send notes and letters just because
  • cook dinner more often
  • spend at least a little time outside every day
  • learn at least two new piano pieces
  • discover new musicals (any suggestions?)
  • do special little things for my family
  • meet a new friend
  • meet up with a blogger friend
  • drink more water and exercise often
  • close my computer more often
  • read at least two Dickens’ novels
  • read an intimidating book
  • do special things with little wilson
  • get my driver’s license
  • take more pictures
  • write every day
  • write at least 30,000 words on a novel idea
  • see a play
  • convince someone I’m British
  • master at least three new hair styles
  • attend a dance
  • begin to learn a new instrument
  • live outside of myself every day
  • actually do, instead of just say
  • finish decorating my room (so this one’s more of a to-do list item, but considering that i’ve been working on this for over a year, i’d really like to finish it before i die)
  • have a spontaneous lunch with a friend
  • volunteer or serve somewhere
  • randomly phone a friend
  • host a dinner or party
  • keep up with my portrait sketches (finish at least two)
  • take more walks

Most likely, I will add to it as the summer progresses and I start marking things off. I’m going to write out this list and hang it on my wall, right next to the “2013 Adventures” list this lovely lady sent me. I’ve got a feeling it’s gonna be an amazing year.

What’s on your summer bucket list?

country girl

the beautiful life project // 001. jessica

to kick off the beautiful life project, meet jessica from the alcove. i had seen jessica floating around the blogosphere for a while before i finally checked out her blog, and oh what a gem it is. the best way i can describe jessica and her blog is gentle. she has such a soothing, calming presence and writing style, and her photography is stunningly raw. hailing from arizona, jessica was so gracious to consent to an interview. basically, i like her a lot. after all, any girl who suddenly pops up on her blog and says “hey guess what? i just got married!” is okay in my book. hehe. enjoy her answers!

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when you hear the phrase “celebrating the beauty of life,” what do you think of?
It reminds me that life is something to get excited about. It’s an extravagant gift that should be celebrated and embraced, with all of its ups and downs. No matter where you’re at in your life, you should always be able to look around and find beauty ─ to be aware of and thankful for the moment you’re being given.

what are your passions, the things that make you excited to be alive?
First and foremost, my family. I’m serious when I say that they make my life worth living. I don’t know where I would be without the love and support of my family (including my husband). After that, I’m very passionate about books, and expressing myself through writing. Over the past few years, I’ve also gained a much deeper appreciation for beauty through photography.

how do you hope to inspire others?
Through my words and actions. I want my words to be heard (always) as an echo of the love of my Messiah, and an inspiration for people to be themselves. I don’t want anyone to be afraid of stepping outside the realms of what everyone else is doing, and make an impact. As for my actions, I try to make love my intention in everything I do. I want to touch peoples’ lives, in hopes that they will see Yeshua working through me.

a few little things that make life even more beautiful…
Bike rides. Quiet afternoons at starbucks. (Even if I’m not buying, I thrive on the atmosphere.) Indie/folk music. Driving with the windows down. Good hair days. Going to hockey games. Cuddling with the man.

something random, something true…
I love watching anime every now and then. I microwave my ice cream (just enough to soften it). I’m deathly afraid of heights, big spiders, and swimming in dark/murky water.

coffee or tea?
Definitely coffee. (Preferably iced.)

if you could do one thing, little or big, to change the world, what would it be?
I would want to let every living person know just how much they are loved and unconditionally cherished by the Messiah. That would be pretty world-changing, I think.

what is your ideal reading environment? and while you’re at it, go ahead and list a handful of favourite titles or authors…
While I love to read just about anywhere, I think that park benches are my preferred venue. I like to be out in the air, and public parks supply the perfect dosage of ambiance for reading. My list of favorite authors and titles is unbelievably long, and continues to grow longer with every trip to the library. Here’s the tip of the iceberg, though:

John Green (The Fault in Our Stars, Looking for Alaska)
Cassandra Clare (The Mortal Instruments, The Infernal Devices)
The River of Time series by Lisa T. Bergren
The Host by Stephenie Meyer
Emily, Anne and Charlotte Bronte (Wuthering Heights, Jane Eyre, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall)
The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis
Sundays at Tiffany’s by James Patterson
Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones
Divergent by Veronica Roth
Across the Universe by Beth Revis
The History of Love by Nicole Krauss
Wonder by R.J. Palacio

what does it mean to you to live fearlessly?
To me, living without fear means living with all the boldness, confidence and courage of a lion, while still maintaining the love, gentleness and grace of the Lamb. You really cannot care what other people think of you, as long as you are being true to yourself and the King. You have to be willing to be mocked for being genuine, and for doing what’s right. Dita Von Ceese said it well: “You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches.

the beautiful life project

I’ve often said I am a passionate person, and one of the things I am most passionate about is living this beautiful life God gave me with the fullest vigor I possess. He gave me so many things that enrich my existence, and even more ways to make the most of the unique life He’s given me.

I’m also a people person. I’m pretty much crazy about people. I love finding out their quirks and passions and loves, what makes them tick and tock, what makes them just giddy to being alive. And as you are probably aware, the subtitle of my blog is “celebrating the beauty of life.” So in my quest to live life fully and richly, I wanted to discover how other girls from all over the globe are purposefully choosing to do the same.

I am thrilled to announce the beginning of what I’m calling The Beautiful Life Project, which is basically a fancy name for a weekly series of interviews. Over the next few months, I will share interviews with gals giving their own view of what it means to celebrate the beauty of life. Not all of these ladies are bloggers, some are my personal friends, and some I had never before been in contact with. But I greatly admire each of them; they each have a different take on life, a unique story to tell, special ways they live their lives so as to bring glory to God our Father.

Readers, I am fairly wild with anticipation for you to see these interviews. It all starts tomorrow. See you there?

country girl

some days + some people just spell g-o-l-d

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my whole family was together for mother’s day weekend, and it was just so beautiful. we were outside in the gorgeous oklahoma spring almost the whole time playing ball, falling asleep on the sidewalk, and having lots of those woah-oh-oh-oh-it’s-always-a-good-time moments. from the random airplane show to my ridiculously attractive siblings, from my brother and i breaking out in perfectly-synchronized gangnam style to my niece avery’s epic “can’t” moment, from lots of good food to all those hours just being a family… yeah, it was a pretty phenomenal weekend. and then we wrapped it up with watching les miz last night. eheeee.

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the classics club: anna karenina

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Title: Anna Karenina

Author: Leo Tolstoy

My thoughts:

Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.

Well, it only took me five months, but I managed to read Leo Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina. Did it take me that long because I did not enjoy it? Quite the contrary! Actually, it was one of the most beautifully written books I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading, and I devoured every word on every page. It was just so… big. At one point, I felt as though I had flipped a thousand pages, then I looked… and I was only on page three-hundred. Oh, goody. Only five hundred more pages to go.

Boasting enough characters to challenge a Dickens novel, Anna Karenina follows the story of Alexey Alexandrovitch, a prestigious politician, and his wife, Anna. Anna is discontent with her life and the husband she views as boring. Upon meeting the lively Vronsky and quickly assuming he is all she has ever dreamed of in a man, Anna enters into a hasty affair with Vronsky, and her actions deeply affect everyone in her life. Intertwined with Alexey and Anna’s lives are a unique spread of other characters: hard-working Levin and Kitty, the girl he loves; the flamboyant and careless Stepan Arkadyevitch and his unhappy wife Dolly…

Anna Karenina is all about choices and relationships, and how both affect each other. It was incredible how richly developed all the characters were (and boy, was there ever a horde of characters!). Tolstoy did a magnificent job at exploring the minutest thought of each of the diverse characters without overloading or boring the reader. I found this book to be such a profound study of human nature, behaviour and how our emotions fluctuate so quickly that it was impossible not to be enraptured by it. But at the risk of making Anna Karenina sound more like a college lecture than a novel, let me assert that Tolstoy was able to do this while still telling a phenomenal story. (How he concluded Anna’s part of the story completely took me by surprise.)

I have read a good amount of books in my lifetime, and almost all of those books have contained a villain of some kind. But I cannot recall a time when I despised a literary character more than Anna Karenina herself. Never have I come across so selfish and unfeeling woman as she. Even when she got what she wanted, she was determined to be dissatisfied with everyone and everything. I never pitied her, or even felt sorry for her; she created her own miserable situation out of the ugliness of her soul. Completely abandoning her husband and her son, she flew into a wild affair with Vronsky to provide a temporary, fleeting happiness, which only served to bring about her utter ruin and destruction.

As I read, I had to wonder why Anna was so repulsed by her husband, for I considered Alexey Alexandrovitch to be one of the most intriguing literary characters ever created. On the surface, he may have seemed indifferent, emotionless, even slightly cold. But underneath, he was bursting with feeling. He insisted on thinking the best of his unfaithful wife, giving her the benefit of the doubt, even when society was brimming with gossip. When Anna finally revealed her affair to him, he was crushed, but attempted to compose himself and accept his new situation, stoically claiming that forgiving his wife is not an option. But at the scene where Anna almost dies in childbirth, all of Alexey’s walls came crumbling down. Regardless of how she had broken him, he realized how dearly he loved his wife and how lost he would have been if she died, and rushed to her deathbed, practically begging her to come back to him. That was a powerful scene. Alexey’s adulterous wife lay dying, and he, wracked with grief, crawls into her bed next to her, pulling her close to him and holding her hand. I was close to tears. My hopes of Alexey and Anna redeeming their marriage were rising…. and then after leading him on, Anna, horrible and cruel woman that she is, once again decides he is not exciting enough for her and runs back to Vronsky (who, I might add, apparently loved Anna so much he… shot himself for her? “honey, i just love you so much i have to… BANG.” um, how exactly does that work? and no, i didn’t just reveal a spoiler. unfortunately, it was not a fatal wound.). And one huge thing I noticed about Alexey Alexandrovitch… through his coldness and his walls and his despair, he never gave up on his wife. I personally think that was one of his hidden reasons he would never consent to a divorce.

A highlight of this novel was the relationship between Levin and Kitty, particularly because it was such a positive (yet stark) contrast to that of Anna’s relationships with both Alexey and Vronsky. I loved watching how Levin and Kitty both changed for the better throughout the story, how they complemented one another, and how they could be equally ridiculous. That proposal scene was priceless. I was growing concerned about Levin toward the end of the novel as he was so desperately seeking true purpose; I was really afraid he was going to do something completely stupid. Thankfully, my fears were put to rest; watching him discover God was just beautiful. But really, he and Kitty were just adorable. Peruse this passage, for instance…

Levin had been married three months. He was happy, but not at all in the way he had expected to be. At every step he found his former dreams disappointed, and new, unexpected surprises of happiness. He was happy; but on entering upon family life he saw at every step that it was utterly different from what he had imagined. At every step he experienced what a man would experience who, after admiring the smooth, happy course of a little boat on a lake, should get himself into that little boat. He saw that it was not all sitting still, floating smoothly; that one had to think too, not for an instant to forget where one was floating; and that there was water under one, and that one must row; and that his unaccustomed hands would be sore; and that is was only to look at it that was easy; but that doing it, though very delightful, was very difficult.

I give you permission to pause and AWWWWWWWW!! to your heart’s content. I read that passage to my mom, and she made the comment that someone should put it in their wedding vows. An excellent idea, Mother dear…

So basically, I loved Anna Karenina (that is to say, the book, not the character). It was gorgeously written, but wasn’t just full of lightweight fluff. It was real and gritty while still maintaining a redemptive theme. It was interesting to compare and contrast the four main relationships in the novel (Anna and Alexey, Anna and Vronsky, Levin and Kitty, Oblonsky and Dolly), and to evaluate why one failed where another didn’t, or why one succeeded where another didn’t.

As I concluded Anna Karenina, I thought of the popular phrase, “love conquers all.” Is that true? Yes, it is. But as I learned from Anna Karenina, a conquering love takes work, trust, and sacrifice.

Those joys were so small that they passed unnoticed, like gold in sand, and at bad moments she could see nothing but the pain, nothing but sand; but there were good moments too when she saw nothing but the joy, nothing but gold.

My rating: 9.5 out of 10

Would I read it again: Definitely… but maybe not for a while considering how long it took me to get through it!

What do you think of Anna Karenina?

country girl

behold. a vlog.

So. Last week, Little Wilson and I conspired and schemed and filmed a vlog while our parents went out to dinner (yeah, Mom and Dad, we weren’t just watching Little Dorrit while you were gone…). It’s incredibly weird, so be prepared. There is singing (or attempts at singing, anyway. it’s amazing how hard it is to sing “Red and Black” without accompanying music or accompanying Aaron Tveit.), way too many Robin Hood references, speculations about what Enjolras would do if he were trapped on a deserted island, and an over-abundance of all-around inanity.

(Oh, and I thought about making a bloopers video, but to save time, I just mashed it all together. So it’s like… a video within a video. VLOG-INCEPTION.)

Isn’t the thumbnail attractive? Actually, it perfectly sums up the video…

And I kinda adore making vlogs, so if you have any suggestions or ideas, then by all means, leave a comment, lovelies!

country girl

how.

so. how long has it been? a year? i’m not sure when we first met via the blogosphere, but ever since, it’s been one of those oh-my-goodness-where-have-you-been-my-whole-life kind of friendships. actually, if we were honest, i think we both looked at each other and said, “ha. you’re weird. can we be friends?” well however it happened, i’m glad it did. because i love it when i see your face and hear your laugh through the computer screen and we both act like total nerds together over skype and have those off-the-wall conversations and laugh over nothing. and the number of emails we’ve exchanged is probably nearing the thousands by now. we just mesh, you and i.

so yeah. without ever having laid eyes on you, i love you. so much that it hurts when i think about how far away you are. and sometimes i just want to drive straight to your house and into your arms and squeeze you tight and say all the things i’ve ever really wanted to say to you. or maybe you should just come visit me? and then we’ll stay up all night talking our hearts out (baring our souls and telling the most appalling secrets, you know) and drinking our jacked-up coffees (or tea, if you prefer, but i hope you’ll let me fix you a coffee) and squealing over that show and finding all our favourite quotes in those books. and i know there will be several times when i will suddenly stop talking and just want to give you another hug. because my. wordyness. you’re my soul sister through and through.

but what i wanna know is how. how on earth does that kind of emotion well up over so many miles. how can i love someone so much without ever having met them. how can i even miss someone i’ve never seen so crazy much. i’m not sure i’ll ever know exactly how that all works. but that’s just the power of love and friendship, i guess. it’s one of those instances where two people found each other and gasped, “you too? i thought i was the only one!” yup. that about sums us up.

so here’s to you, my precious friends i’ve never gotten to meet. (yet.) you are gold.

(i almost included an abbreviated version of this in my list of things i will never understand. but then i thought… nah. this one needs a post of its own.)